So often lately, I've heard people open up about their suicidal thoughts, tendencies, and actions. Often I am surprised that these people have had this struggle, because they "don't seem like the type." Well of course they don't! Nobody seems like the type to forget how important they are, to hurt so badly that they just want it to end, regardless of the consequences. It's especially strange that I should be surprised, because I never seemed like the type either, yet two years ago I had the same struggle. I've been in a situation similar to these people whose despair and pain was so cleverly disguised. I know what it is to tell people you're just tired, you're just stressed, you're just fine. I know what it is to hide your pain so deep nobody will ever find it. It corroded me and tortured me until I lost sight of who I was, of what the world really was.
I also know that my biggest problem was feeling alone. I didn't know how I was loved. I had no idea that I was surrounded by people who cared so much about me! If I had one message I could tell to anyone who was hurting, anyone who was questioning the point of continuing on, it would be this: I LOVE YOU! I think you matter, I think you are important, I think you have a lot to give this world, and it may have more to give back to you than you believe.
Please don't give up on yourself. I know you're in a dark place, and I won't lie: getting out of it is not easy. But eventually, you can reclaim yourself. I'm on your side. Many others stand with me in support of you. Pick the winning team - be with us, choose yourself. I love you!
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